Didn't I just say I wouldn't fill the voids with more work?! I never learn ... but I'm trying to amend my life, starting right now.
It's nearly 1 am and I'm still up. Up to about 15 minutes ago, I was reading literature, trying to put together a grant proposal that could bring in some international funding. However, the deadline is seven days away. If this were all I had on my plate, yes, I would go for it. However, there are other things--some work, some personal--that are important and need attention, too.
Furthermore, there are two existing grants that need closer supervision. We're in the tail end of preparing accounting reports, for instance. I generally like straightening out the books, but it is time-consuming, tedious, detailed work that needs many iterations to get right. There are field trials to conduct. There's an analysis that needs to be conducted. About 15 minutes ago, I realized that I am approaching my limits. I no longer have the absorptive capacity to take on yet another grant (well, maybe if I gave up other time sinks like sleeping, diving, and spending time with my family...).
It was at that point when I told myself to give up already. Know when you're beaten. Back away. Live to fight another day.
I surrender. Good night.
